I'll Show You.

I Don't Need A Man - Miss A

Recently, my best friend, Jennifer Wong YueTeng has asked me to listen to MissA's latest song, "I Don't Need A Man".

Lyrically, the song MissA sang is about them not going after anything that they didn’t earn. They would rather work hard all day and buy nice things on layaway than accept a dime from somebody else.

“I’m gonna live for myself,” “I don’t care about living a good life like other kids do with rich parents and a rich man / that’s why I feel honorable.”

I Will Show You - Ailee

This song was introduced by another best friend, Rachel Teo Mayli. The song is by a rookie solo artist, Ailee who is famous for he debut song, Heaven. 

In this song, Ailee was a nerd-ish looking girl whose boyfriend (played by GO - MBLAQ) dumped her for another girl. After that, Ailee decided to change into a different girl. She changed her hairstyle, put on make-up and wear different outfits. She shows her ex that she is a much happier person now, than when she was with him. She says to forget him without any regret. 

I like this song. I WILL SHOW YOU TOO ;) heehee..

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Really inspired by the two songs above. The two songs are to show that girls these days are independant & strong. It's not a MUST to have a guy :)

OHH YA, before I forgot, 

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NEXT, I really need to get studying for SPM. It's in like, 2 weeks. I'm dead. 

나 어떡해? Na Ottokkhae? What to do? WHAT TO DO WITH THE LAZY ME?!

Everyday on youtube learning dance moves instead of studying. Kill me already.

According to YueTeng, the forecast result for trials exam is already out. 

I really hope I can use those results to enroll myself in IACT College for next year.

I'm using the forecast results/trial exam results because I want to take the January Intake.

I'm actually still dilemma-ing for either taking The Diploma in Mass Communication or The Foundation in Media Studies.

Diploma is 2 & 1/2 years while Foundation is only 1 year.

Diploma is much more expensive than foundation.

But Diploma has more to learn than in foundation. It will both end up in BA (Hons) in Mass Communications anyways.

I really don't know what to do :( 나 어떡해? 

Yeah, I have been saying "na ottokkhae?" alot these days. HAHA. 

Oh wells, I guess I shall finish my SPM, then only think about it?

Have 1 month+ to slowly think :) hehe.

20th Oct - HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY, NABILLA ♥
Picture taken in 2001 :)

Alrights, that's all for today! :)

Loves!

x, Aly

Monkeys.

Monkeys. Different types of monkeys. 

PAUL FRANK - A MONKEY
First of all, I got my Paul Frank Hoodie from Leeann today! :)
Go follow @StyleJournal on Instagram! They sell clothings and accessories at affordable prices! :D
So this is the Paul Frank Hoodie! :D

It's so suitable for tonight's rainy weather :)

It's so comfy! :)

FRIENDS - MONKEYS
Second up, Lately I have been skyping alot with these few people.

From Left: HaoYi, Nabilla & KahSeng

They are cool people to talk to. They might be monkeys at times in the middle of the conversation, like,

they might be talking sick stuff, they might suddenly just burst out laughing non-stop, and they might also suddenly argue with each other.

When we have nothing to talk about, we will still be on skype, everyone will just be quiet. Awkward silences everywhere. Either that, or someone (ME) would be blasting KPOP music xD
But, they're awesome :) They cheer me up with their "noises" when I have emo nights.
Thank you, skype buddies :)

THE MONKEY - ME
Thirdly, I am THE monkey.
SPM is so freaking near, and I am still monkey-ing around!
I am not serious with my studies at all.
I can even fall asleep when I'm doing my revision.
WHY?!
Why do I feel so relaxed when the others are so stressed out?
There is something wrong with me, I'm sure of it.

That's all for today's post :)
Will update soon :D

x, Aly

Fade,

I miss him. No, not him. The him that I have liked since I was form 3.
It was an on and off thing. Yes, I feel bad.
I feel bad every single time I give up on him 'cuz I think to myself,
"He won't like someone like me. He never will. I am not his type".
I know, no matter how close we get, we won't get to be together.
He, now, doesn't even talk to me like how he used to last time.
I stopped talking to him 'cuz I got busy.
I got busy and I didn't pick up their (him and a few other friends) calls on skype 'cuz I was busy on another line with someone else.
I still can't let him go. No matter what it is, I still go back to him.
After all this while, it's still him.
Although I know, we are never gonna have a chance together.
We are not as close as we are last time anymore.
Should I still work on it? Or should I just give up once more?
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So, Driving for the first time. Well, not exactly first time.
My first time driving, was with my mum. Keep "Die Fire"-ing.
This, first ACTUAL class, it wasn't as bad as I expected to be.
The feeling of  "I can drive" is nice :D
Legs were quite tired from the clutch, but the rest was fine :)
My instructor, Mr. Chang, is cool :D
His ways of making you familiar with the things in the car is letting you play with the clutch, accelerator, gear & steering wheel for 1 & 1/2 hours. HAHA. Epic ways xD
Second class is on Friday. It'll go well :D
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Aunty's in the hospital now. Sigh. getting worried.
I hope she'll be alright from all this.
Pray to God.
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Before I end, I don't want any misunderstandings.

Hey, look, I don't hate him. We still talk. Yes, We still do. We're still friends.
I have no hatred feelings towards him. None at all. OKAY?!


x, Aly :)

Is it my fault?

Those words. Since he put it that way, it made me think that I was wrong. 
I blamed myself for everything. 
I did everything wrong. I did something that I said I will never do.
I have hurt him.

Waking up the next morning, watching Music Bank on KBS World.
I was alright after crying it all out to my cousin & sister the previous evening & saying it all out on skype to my best friend. I had a nice and comfortable sleep that night. No nightmares, no waking up in the midnight.
Looking at the clock, it's 10:20! Time to fetch my brother from his Mandarin Class every Saturday.
Stood up, wanted to go and change. My mum asked me to sit.
She came infront of me, and asked, "Are you alright?".
I couldn't hold it in. I cried on the spot. I don't know why. I thought I was over it.
My mum told me that everything is alright. Everything's over.
I didn't need to care about that idiot's feelings anymore.
She knows. My mum, I mean. She knows that I didn't dare to say or voice out anything to him as I know that I will be even sadder after listening to what he has to say.
Yes, I have tried voicing out to him before. What did I get? No improvement. Just tears.
Afraid I might say something wrong, so, I have decided to shut myself out. I don't wanna say anything anymore. I didn't wanna lose him. Happened quite a few times.
So it's pretty obvious what was the talk my mum & I had right? :)

Is it my fault? Don't think so. 
Not my lost, but yours. 
You lost someone, who really loved you.

Anyways, it's the past now. This post, is to thank ALL my friends & family who were there for me :D
Special Thanks to Wong Yue Teng, Christina Chin, Shawne Kee, Shiok Leng, Nabilla ♥
Thank you girls so so much :) These few girls are the ones who were there for me when I was down. They tried helping me. They helped picked up with words from their experiences.

Everyone, I'm fine now. I am okay, WITHOUT YOU :)