Is it my fault?

Those words. Since he put it that way, it made me think that I was wrong. 
I blamed myself for everything. 
I did everything wrong. I did something that I said I will never do.
I have hurt him.

Waking up the next morning, watching Music Bank on KBS World.
I was alright after crying it all out to my cousin & sister the previous evening & saying it all out on skype to my best friend. I had a nice and comfortable sleep that night. No nightmares, no waking up in the midnight.
Looking at the clock, it's 10:20! Time to fetch my brother from his Mandarin Class every Saturday.
Stood up, wanted to go and change. My mum asked me to sit.
She came infront of me, and asked, "Are you alright?".
I couldn't hold it in. I cried on the spot. I don't know why. I thought I was over it.
My mum told me that everything is alright. Everything's over.
I didn't need to care about that idiot's feelings anymore.
She knows. My mum, I mean. She knows that I didn't dare to say or voice out anything to him as I know that I will be even sadder after listening to what he has to say.
Yes, I have tried voicing out to him before. What did I get? No improvement. Just tears.
Afraid I might say something wrong, so, I have decided to shut myself out. I don't wanna say anything anymore. I didn't wanna lose him. Happened quite a few times.
So it's pretty obvious what was the talk my mum & I had right? :)

Is it my fault? Don't think so. 
Not my lost, but yours. 
You lost someone, who really loved you.

Anyways, it's the past now. This post, is to thank ALL my friends & family who were there for me :D
Special Thanks to Wong Yue Teng, Christina Chin, Shawne Kee, Shiok Leng, Nabilla ♥
Thank you girls so so much :) These few girls are the ones who were there for me when I was down. They tried helping me. They helped picked up with words from their experiences.

Everyone, I'm fine now. I am okay, WITHOUT YOU :)